Schizophrenia is tough. Though, once again, I think it is just a gravely misunderstood talent. The voices tell me things. What’s coming next. What someone said in their head…whatever. Also, part of Schizophrenia is Multiple Personality Disorder.
This is a tricky one. I don’t know how many of me there is, but most people that know me fairly well have met at least these three: Kevin, KC, Neo
Kevin. Well, he’s an animal. He’s what you are dealing with when you see grey eyes. Many people say they look like a meal. It’s not far from the truth. If you are still breathing, then I really love you. Just don’t test me. Many people can’t handle it. I am fairly certain people have been emotionally traumatized by him. Relax, he’s an Irish Boondock Saint. You’ve seen the movie.
KC. He has giggle fits. He loves skateboarding, yoyos, rubics cubs, books, and computers. He asks questions that get him and people he loves into trouble. He crashes walking computers 10 – 15 years ahead of his time. He makes an over-achiever look like a slacker. He is a gentleman.
Neo. Well…what to say…computers are simple. If I am over my head, I got people to call. I can get more done in an hour than some can get done in a day. No bragging. It makes people nervous. My whole IT career I felt held down in some way. Well, now I code and network because I want to. It’s fun. Midnight to six am is the best time to sit in the cave. Most IT guys are home. They do 40-50. I do other stuff those hours and play with electricity at night.
All three of those guys are fun to know. Kevin’s eyes are Grey. KC is Teal. I haven’t seen Neo in a while. Most people aren’t around when he plays.
Don’t get me started on lights.
I will see binary lights in my field of vision. If I start seeing those, I know I am in danger, and I know what to do based on the number and color and lights. I asked an Air Force optometrist about it last night, and we decided it was some sort of instinct. I think it’s nature and nurture. I think it’s the skills of a velociraptor, wolf, or maybe a Seal. I have wrestled with it for years. I didn’t go overseas and do this or that. Well, I did it at home. Luckily, when our elite security detail of less than 10 people kept an aircraft carrier on lock, I guess people knew that there were some unique skills in those Sailors.
I’ll tell ET you said what’s up. You don’t want to worry about his crazy cousin.
Wagen, over and out.
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